What I think has changed the most in my twenty ninth year, is that I think I have finally learned how to live in the moment. I recognize that I am very Type A. I love to be one step ahead of the game at all times. I buy Christmas and birthday gifts months in advance and I plan evening meals for the week every Sunday before my Monday morning shopping trip. I realize that I swear by my planner more than most, but I will say that I am learning to use it more as a reference, rather than a lifeline. Having Alec has really helped me loosen up, mostly because I am no longer in control of my time. I am learning that there will always be dishes in the sink, and I will always get to washing them eventually, but if there is an opportunity to play with my boy instead… that's just what I'm going to do. I am learning to put the phone down and pay attention to what is actually going on around me. These current moments are so so important, so very precious, and I don't want to miss a thing.
My goal for my twenty ninth year is to focus a bit more on myself. Last year was an awesome, challenging year. Not only did I bring a little babe into the world, but I had a bit more going on than the average parent due to his heart condition. Like most new moms do, I hurled head first into motherhood and somehow managed to lose of little bit of me in the process. This year, I want to be a little more than just "Alec's mom". I want to start eating better and exercising more. I want to try and paint my toe nails every now and again. I want to stop rocking this "natural ombre" look I've been working on lately. And maybe I can even manage to plan a little girlfriend getaway. I want to go out on a real date with my husband at least once a month. Don't get me wrong here, there is absolutely nothing better than being a Mom, (really it's the best thing ever and I honestly can't remember life before) but I just want to start to take a little better care of myself, both physically and personally.
